I'm seriously considering re-adding dairy (and possibly eggs, one day) into my diet. However, it would be goat dairy, not cow's. It will also only be organic, free-range, and preferably local.
Honestly, it kind of scares me just writing it. I love being vegan; it's healthy, fun and challenging to create vegan dishes. However, I'm not so sure if it's the healthiest option for me anymore. There's something I haven't discussed here before, and that's my period. I know it's a sensitive and personal matter, so I won't delve into it too much, but the gist is that I haven't had my period in months. I thought it was due to the drastic weight loss, but a nutritionist told me that I should have gotten it back within a few months. It's now been almost a year. I've played around with my diet some by adding more fats and protein, but it hasn't come back yet. I've also started eating more calories to account for my daily exercise. I'm not sure if nuts/nut butter, avocados, protein powder, etc are doing enough. I'm worried about what this means for my reproductive health, obviously, but also my bone density. I'd like to play around with my diet some more, by adding more fat, calcium, protein and healthy cholesterol. Enter: goat dairy (and possibly eggs). I'd rather try doing all that I can naturally before I turn to supplements or birth control. I'm scared, though. I've put so much into being vegan that I don't want to feel guilty and I don't want people to view me negatively. I'm also scared about what will happen to my body or overall health if I start eating dairy and/or eggs again.
On a less serious note, I've always wanted to try goat products. In fact, there are a lot of things I've wanted to try since getting heavily into food and cooking that I haven't been able to because of being vegan. I know it seems silly, but I'd like to be able to eat things that I want. I like experiencing new things, new dishes and types of cuisine, but I'm currently limiting myself.
Please don't be angry with me. I'm really struggling with all of this. If you can offer any tips or advice, I'd appreciate it greatly.